Wednesday, December 22, 2010

Year in Review 2010

Year in Review 2010

1) Where did you begin 2010?

Warren & I both took off from work from Xmas to NYE but choose a staycation. We spent a couple of days at Breitenbush , enjoying the hot springs in the snow. For NYE itself, we had a simple date night, cooked together, lit a fire in the fireplace and enjoyed one another’s company. The next day we went to a big party, the aftermath of which Warren documented in his mouse story here:

in the wee hours of a new year
by Warren Washburn on Sunday, January 3, 2010 at 7:17am

having well-wished carl and talking with folks for some time, my social anxiety got the better of me and so we taxied our way home.

settling in for a movie biopic what about monet and the impressionists attempt at defining their world. a sudden shadow lit across the front of the hearthstone.

did you see? we asked each other. yes.

so i stands to me feet and around the coffee table and there behind the firewood bin staring me in the eye, the beast. the horror. please see the attached artist's rendering from eyewitness account.

if you see this animal, kill it dead. will pay cash.


in the subsequent pandemonium i lost track of the critter. pillows were tossed. facelights were used. books were raised as a blunt force weapon. some folks up the street lit off some fireworks. we poured over the living room, kitchen, and laundry area... but no trace of the creature could be found.

but i saw it. it exists.

we convinced ourselves and consoled each other that it was in fact not a TERRORMOUSE with power and toughness of 5/4 and flesh rending incisors but rather, a simple 0/1 mouse. unfortunately, also having the ability to tap and become shrouded until the end of the turn. fucker.

back to the movie. compelling film and pretty to watch.

a spotlight shines across the window. hrm? stop movie.

now, we have four or five of portland's finest police cruisers out in the street. cops are combing through neighbors yards and looking under cars... wtf? are teh mouse police here?

no. in fact, the firecrackers earlier were actually live firearms. the wannabe gangster shitheads across the street decided to pop off a few rounds for giggles and theater. us, completely clueless in our frantic fantasize about the mouse intrusion and potential rodentia attack failing to recognize the truer danger just outside the one-eighth inch of glass partition.

gah. i've got to move us from this place. we don't feel safe anymore.

i guess the moral of the story to be; if the crowd of one hundred or so of your friends laughing and dancing and having fun seems to be a bit much and you just have got to get away from it all... hunker down smile and nod. it'll all be over soon enough.

xoxo

2. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?

Got pre-approved for a mortgage (although we have not yet purchased a house), purchased and drove a scooter, rode a ferry to the San Juan Islands, watched for whales, saw bald eagles, visited some new hot springs, and saw Crater Lake, applied for graduate school, and attended two different board meetings for two non-profits.

3. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?

I don’t make New Year’s Resolutions. I am still occasionally working on the not smoking bits (mostly successful at the moment). I appear to now be able to do the social smoking thing, which seems to be a couple of cigarettes a week on average give or take. I really would like to see this go away completely once and for all. I am also still working on the regular exercise goals (less successfully than I would like to admit). My walking steps per day are very good. I spent three weeks monitoring this data. Cardio not so much. I need to get some aerobic exercise and more yoga in.

4. Were you in school (anytime this year)?

I got re-certified in CPR.

I did just apply to graduate school for Spring of 2011 at Portland State University for the Geography Dept’s GIS certificate program. I am on the waiting list for the pre-requisite class for winter term which begins on January 3rd.

5. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Not this year.

6. Any new additions to your family?

No.

7. Did anyone close to you die?

My grandfather Merle Anderson passed away on November 26th at the age of eighty-nine.

8. Did you know anybody who got married?

It seemed to be more of year of break-ups, fallings out & that end of the spectrum. Or people holding it together.

Warren & I celebrated our 1st wedding anniversary (and our honeymoon) by going to the San Juan Islands for a week around July 4th. We stayed on San Juan Island, in Friday Harbor and also went went to Victoria, BC.

9. What countries did you visit?

Canada. See above.

10. How did you earn your money?

My job at the Law Firm, although I was demoted in March from the Records Department to Support Services.

11. Where did most of your money go?

Rent. Utilities. Food. Student loans. Some entertainment.

12. Did you have any encounters with the police?

Other than the mouse story? No.

13. What would you like to have in 2011 that you lacked in 2010?

A house. A job which doesn’t make me want to stab people with sporks daily. Plans for travel.

14. What date from 2010 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?

Tineke’s graduation from NCNM. Way to go Dr. Malus!

15. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

This year was one with many challenges for me and my friends. I’d say my biggest achievement is holding on to my optimism.

16. What was your biggest failure?

Not finding a house to buy although we spent the entire year looking for one, actually going into about 150 or so houses, driving by more and looking online. The job situation in its entirety, specifically the demotion and my lack of a solution/better alternative.

17. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Actually this was a healthier year for me. Knocks on wood.

18. Where did you go on holidays/vacation?

Breitenbush; Mt Hood ski trip (with no inner tubbing for me); camping at the land for Land Olympics; San Juan Islands and the Olympic National Park; North Umpqua River/Tokatee Hot Spings/Crater Lake over Labor Day weekend; birthday weekend at the coast; Thanksgiving weekend in Montana with Tracy’s family.

19. What was the best thing you bought?

My scooter!

20. Whose behavior merited celebration?

Warren for starting my days with kisses on my eyes & always making it better; Dylan for showing such amazing courage & keeping her sense of humor and anger when appropriate; Bob New for creating so many volunteer opportunities for Common Ground Wellness Center; Lostmachine Andy, Happy Mel and Jesse Banks & ALL the crew who helped to create the pirate ship and get her to the Black Rock desert (despite differences after the the fact, I still want to acknowledge all the awesomeness that did occur); Matt McCune for coming up with the Ten days of Tanya and providing us with a catalyst for creating more random acts of kindness; Tanya for being an inspiration; and Doctors Tineke and Sija for creating the Portland Artists Clinic.

21. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

My employer’s behavior has both appalled and depressed me. I have never encountered such consistently negative personalities, worked in such a hostile environment or been demoted before. This clearly isn’t the job for me. Unfortunately for all the job searching and resuming flinging I have done I have only had one phone interview that didn’t materialize into a new opportunity. I really hope to change this situation in 2011.

22. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

My scooter? watching for whales? This year was about appreciating what I have & living in the moment.

23. Did you move anywhere?

Unfortunately, no.

24. Where do you live now? NE Killingsworth; Portland, OR.

25. What memorable shows/events/natural phenomena did you see in 2010?

The Devil & Billy Markham performance at Curious Comedy Theater; Cirque du Soleil’s Kooza performance; Hitchcock’s 39 Steps at Portland Center Stage; Bastille Day at the Joan of Arc Statue; Star Trek in the Park; Mondo Croquet; PDX Bridge Festival where there was concern that Solovox & all the people dancing might literally bring down the Hawthorne Bridge; Margaret Cho live; seeing the swifts at Chapman School; Ten Days of Tanya; last camping weekend of the year at the land; corn maze silliness; Iliad at Portland Center Stage; Anti-Con & santa carolling the mayor; our white elephant & bad sweater party; the White Album show.


Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Graduate Certificate in Geographic Information Systems??!




I am considering Graduate School. Specifically I am considering the Graduate Certificate in this program: http://www.geog.pdx.edu/GIS/index.php. It's got a lot of the elements I am seeking. No GREs required. Focused program without esoteric and mostly academic content. I already have a Bachelor's in Women's Studies with a minor in English. It requires 20 graduate level credits & offers tangible, marketable skills acquired for job searching when complete. For now I am hoping to take the undergraduate pre-requisiste for people without a geography background this winter quarter. It seems like a good way to find out if I have any aptitude or interest in this. Since I am not formally enrolled at this point, I am re-admitted to PSU as a non-degree student. Wish me luck!

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Home Sweet Home?

We made an offer on a house this week. Officially. We didnt' get it.

I rode the roller coaster of emotions but not as hard or as fast as I could have. Was I anxious? sleepless? imagining oh fuck! what if we get it?! oh fuck! what if we don't?! Yes. All that & then some. On a scale of one to ten where one is mildly disappointed and ten is devastated I actually would say three. Or maybe more frustrated or challenged.

I am so over this rental place without a backyard really or room to have more than a couple of people over. The traffic noise is insane & keeps me awake at night. The landlord still hasn't fixed the house from when the neighbor drove into it two years ago almost. We've seen a mouse in the house. There have been shootings on the street. It's time to go.

Feels like I have been looking forever. I know what I want & I don't think it's unrealistic.

Or is it?! I just want somewhere to nest where I can paint the walls & make it mine.

I am trying not to lose hope in the whole process. It's not easy.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Bald Eagles on San Juan Island



We'd already spent a couple of days on Orcas Island, staying at Doe Bay resort eating amazing food some grown in their garden on site, camping, soaking in hot tubs overlooking the bay, observing vistas from old stone look outs, cloud bursting, hiking amongst waterfalls, and whatnot.

We'd taken the ferry over to Friday Harbor, on San Juan Island. We checked into our bed & breakfast where we'd been upgraded, appropriately enough, to the honeymoon suite. The gardens were gorgeous. There was an outdoor hot tub, and since we were the only guests, private enough.

We looked through the local menus to get an idea of where to go for dinner. I picked one menu, without an address. Reservations were made, and later we found out it was the "best restaurant on the island" according to our host. We had some time before dinner. As it was our only night on the island, we decided to drive north to the other harbor. Maybe we'd catch the sunset, see a sculpture garden, have a couple cocktails. We took the road out of town.

Along the way we saw some large birds circling in the sky. We slowed. We looked. "Pull over," I requested. It was a bald eagle. Closer inspection revealed multiple bald eagles. A woman who pulled up on the roadside with us later, excited to show this phenomenal event off to her granddaughters, explained it to me. A farmer periodically put out food for the eagles, randomly so as not to interrupt their feeding cycle or cause dependency issues. The male eagles stacked themselves up in particular tree. Across the road another would call.

One would go, swooping downward.

Then another.

Then another.

Then another.

They were teaching their young to hunt.

The adults would go, then the young.

Then repeat.

Another car pulled over.

After twenty minutes so so it was winding down. The show was over.

I saw bald eagles, and earlier in the day, dorsal fins of whales in the distance.

I don't have a picture of the eagles but I hope to remember.

Friday, June 4, 2010

Window Gazing



Photo by Steve Ranney - Graffiti in Paris

It was one of my co-worker's last days at work yesterday. I have been uncharacteristically crabby with her recently. I rationalized it as it's OK; she's kind of annoying. Or it's been rainy out; I've been crabby with everyone. Or it's just work stress, since I didn't know what was happening or how it would affect me. Would my work load increase by 50%?! It's certainly not her fault. None of these are justifiable reasons to be rude to someone in any case.

Then I looked into the mirror, so to speak and realized that I was jealous of her. Jealous that she could just quit this stupid job, jealous that she gets to enjoy her summer, jealous that she knows what she wants to do and has a plan to do it. She's going to grad school to be a Spanish teacher.

I WANT TO KNOW WHAT I WANT TO BE WHEN I GROW UP!

It's time to end the tantrum. Really. It's not helping anyone. If I want to quit my job, travel, enjoy my summer, go to grad school or whatever it is that I dream for myself then I need to make it happen. Moping and being crabby to innocent bystanders is not the solution. I know this. It's fairly obvious.

I am over yesterday's epiphany but I still wanted to write it out as a reminder. Today it's gorgeous and sunny out. I am going to get some breakfast, then look at scooters! Wish me luck that I can find something that fits my personality.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Assignment: Pretend to be Intro to Photography Student on Walkabout



Garden Gnome with Binoculars

Assignment: Pretend to be Intro to Photography Student on Walkabout



Crack in the Wall

Assignment: Pretend to be Intro to Photography Student on Walkabout



Texture & Fence

Motivation

People who only see the occasional facebook status, who I don't see often in real life or actually talked to at length recently seem confused. Do I have a job? Why am I looking for work? What's going on? I am coming up on my one year anniversary of the job at the law firm. I still work there although I was demoted a while ago. Some navel gazing has revealed that this situation feels at best tenuous, often tedious and toxic in its negativity. This is not a win/win situation. I am not living up to my potential. I am seeking options.

Looking for work has not been uplifting. I have received a thanks for applying notification, several notifications that my application is being reviewed but mostly ridiculous replies from random companies spamming me or wanting me to apply for jobs I am overqualified for or have no interest in whatsoever. I am discouraged.

We are still looking for a house to buy. We have a rather precise list of what we want/need. We haven't found the elusive it. If I am going to spend a quarter of a million dollars, I am looking for the definitive statement "This is it!'" not the question of "Is this it?" I'll know it when I see it. We've been close. Most houses in our price range are too much of a fixer, in a neighborhood without any neighborhood feel to it, or just missing one of the deal breakers. In the meantime, the landlord still hasn't fixed the hole in the house from almost two years ago, the traffic on Killingsworth is driving me insane, and I still don't have a scooter.

The rain has been making me grumpy. We were supposed to go camping at the land this weekend, and my motivation failed me. After a week that was really hard, I wasn't up for challenges. Predictions were for wind, scattered rain, cold nights. What I learned is that not giving it a chance is not the answer necessarily. I didn't realize how much I was looking forward to changing the scenery, getting out of town, hanging with friends. Kicking myself for not doing it right & not making the most of my three day weekend is not helping with the process of adjusting my attitude.

I am tired of all the old stories about what isn't working for me.

What we did have this weekend were watching movies with dragons, crepes for breakfast, mimosas, silly mutton chop mustaches, naps, smoothies, playing cribbage while people watching, movies, bookstore, photography for the fun of it, and much relaxing.

It's time for summer and something different.

Tomorrow is June.